I’m revisiting my blog after 6 years and read through all my older posts. I love that all my posts are so me.
All my older posts were written before there was ChatGPT or Claude or Gemini to shape your words.
I love that I felt so much about certain books and movies or even shows that I had to immediately put them into words and send those out into the world. I don’t know if anyone has ever read this blog except my husband and me. But I’m glad today that this blog exists and lets me see my past self. I’m glad I didn’t give this up and let go. I’m glad this was here for me today.
Compared to 2020, I don’t know if I am the same person today. Are my words the same? Do I talk the same way?
In my mind, I’m rebelling so hard right now. I want my words to be mine. Even though we’ve been using gen AI for a year or so, I already reach for Claude more than I open Google. I ask Copilot to read through all my words before I send an email or even text message colleagues. I second guess myself continuously and need Copilot to tell me yes the message is polite but it can be tightened further or made more polite or more informal or more casual or more senior-friendly. I constantly worry that my own words are not good enough anymore.
Will Claude or Copilot help my leaders and other stakeholders understand me better and connect with me? Or can they see that those words are not my own even though I waste so much time correcting copilot words to make it sound like me. But do I succeed?
I can already see that this post is so incoherent. But that’s how my brain works. So chaotic and leaping from thought to thought. I like this. This makes me feel like I can still manage to be myself somehow.
Of course this post is no big piece of literature and I’m no Emily Bronte or Jane Austen. But if someone is reading this, I assure you, this is how my brain sounds today and how I talk to myself.
To answer my question from the title of this post then. I think I’m still a lot similar to the person who last posted in 2020. Not sure what all I’ve shed but I’ve certainly added some new features and upgraded a little bit. I like the 2020 version of myself and I still like the 2026 version of me. There are parts of me that could be better but that’s an ongoing improvement.
I don’t like that this post is too long so I’ll stop here and publish.
